Hello Blogging Friends,
Felt it was time for another check in!
First of all, I’m 311 days sober today. I was thinking about it the other day, and I’m mind blown that in less than 55 days, I have not had a drop of alcohol in ONE YEAR. To be completely honest, the year didn’t seem to drag on as I thought it would. It went by rather fast and I have enjoyed this year immensely. I made my first trip to Philadelphia with my now fiancé to see a baseball game, and to visit family. We went in, and were around many bars and I was just fine. I also went to my first Orioles game when I was less than one month sober. I remember finding it really hard being there surrounded by natty boh guzzling fans, but I made it out PROUD that I’d remember this game for a long time. I had my first sober birthday, wedding (as a guest), family vacation, Halloween (big drinking thing for me in the past), thanksgiving, Christmas, NEW YEARS, and St. Patrick’s day! Instead of being hung over, I’ve spent my weekends, running, walking, swimming, antiquing, hanging out with friends, baking, playing with my nephew, visiting new places, working to pay off debt, planning a wedding, running half marathons, and just LIVING! I’m not planning my life around going to the bar, having enough money to go drinking, and making an ass out of myself. It is really the best feeling in the world.
It’s funny though, because every once in awhile I think “man, a glass of wine would be nice” but I’ve realized these thoughts are just going to happen. They come just like “man, I’d really like to be off work today” and pass before I can really put more thought into them. I treat it like my Celiac. I’d love to eat a BIG FAT DONUT, but I can’t. It’s that simple. I bask in the moment for a few seconds remember what a fresh, warm donut tastes like, and then treat myself with a dose of Reality! I then remember how HORRIBLE, and SICK I’d feel after eating it. The 3 minutes of tasting the donut is not worth the 4 days of utter sickness I will feel. Alcohol is exactly the same way for me. A glass of wine would taste nice, but it wouldn’t just be A glass of wine. It’d be several.. and we all know where it goes from there. I’m better off without it, just like that fattening ol’ donut. When you can attack your “craving” this way, it’s just so easy to stay sober. I can’t have it. That’s it. No more discussion. If anyone is curious, this is how I’ve made it to be 311 days sober. By just telling myself NO and moving on.
With the warmer weather moving in, I am so excited about the good things coming my way this spring/summer. I’ve got so many things planned and I couldn’t be happier. Alcohol is the least of my worries…I’ve got memories to make (and remember!)
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